Listening to Myself
We are literally at the homestretch of the year, can you guys believe it?
I think about the whole year, and I honestly could cry because this year was a year of tests for me. I felt I was tested on so many levels, and there were moments where I thought I wasn't strong enough to handle what was being thrown my way, but somehow some way I powered through. I think one of the main reasons I have been able to get through thing is listening to my heart and gut. Your mind can take you to many different places especially negative places.
My family is a huge reason I push through when things get tough. I tend to tell myself a lot that if my mom could raise three children alone in the hood, that there should be no obstacle I can't overcome.
I don't know about you guys, but I have daily morning talks with myself, mostly on the way to work. I not only talk to myself, but I talk with God. This is something that helps me to get through my day and focus on my blessings, instead of my downfalls. It can become very easy to get wrapped up in your problems. For a moment I was getting emotional and depressed about the things I have been going through with my son. If you are a mom, you know where I am coming from when I say we can be our biggest critic and boy was I beating myself up about it. This post is honestly not about my son; I will eventually speak more about it, its more so to motive you guys to be in tune with your feelings. Know when its time to express your feelings whether it's talking it out with someone, out loud to yourself, but please don't bottle it in because it is not healthy for you, I am still learning this. The beginning of this year was rough, but I am so focused more than ever. Blessings are coming in, so I have no choice but to bang out the last two months of the year.
I hope this helps any of you guys going through it, please know it gets better.